We all have been changed...no normalcy when you are a victim...Just battle everyday to keep your sanity and beat this disease...You are still the wonderful person that you were you just need some help...

I get frustrated and agitated that I can't make myself do everything I used to do. I push myself too hard and end up paying for it for an additional 3 or 4 days of barely being able to even get out of bed. I keep thinking if I push my body, it will get stronger but it isn't working out that way. I don't have patience, I work hard for fast results, ooof not anymore.

I found reading "Radical Remission" very helpful in encouraging me to deal with my cancer in a self supporting way.

I have CLL. I’m 61 on watch and wait. After my diagnosis, I walk away from conflict at work. I will state my case, then exit. The stress is not good. I enjoy my life outside work and decided to get a doctorate degree. I also enjoy our animals. Having balance is difficult but is achievable. 🍀

Kelly, I think it is that we don't always "look" sick. Do you know what I mean? It's like I have to remind my husband that I have cancer. I truly think he doesn't want to admit it. He is not always as sympathetic as I need him to be. I think it upsets him too much. His solution is that I just need to get up and move and I will feel better or I need to eat better. Whatever... He loves me and I love him, but I just don't think he understands what this really means. I believe he is so scared of losing me that he will not "go there" with me.